Comparison Can Suck the Joy Right Out of the Day
Which do you want to hear first; the good news or the bad news? How you answer might reveal a little bit about yourself but what if you let someone else’s good news become twisted in your ear to where it becomes bad news in your own life? That’s when I learned that comparison can suck the joy right out of the day.
On Friday, I heard that someone became cancer free. Instead of rejoicing, I simply dwelt in the valley of Whys: Why does he get to have a surgery? Why not me? Have I not been faithful? Have I not been prayed? Why is my immediate future filled with chemo and more tests? Walking in this valley just got me angry; so much so that I began taking it out on other people. Finally, Gail enters the picture to find out what’s wrong with me and the anger dissolved into tears. I hadn’t fully realized it but Gail had already visited this particular valley on multiple occasions. By Prayer and Presence, she walked me right out of it. By being so focused on how He chose to heal someone else, I nearly missed all the ways He is moving in my life:
- A buddy whose friendship I measure in decades arranged it so that I was able to preach my sermon on Resiliency: the Art of Bouncing Back at Prestonwood Baptist Church to their Singles department. If you’ve got 40 or so minutes free, click here to listen and let me know what you think.
- Another buddy, also a decades long friendship, was up from Houston and took care of a number of honey-do tasks outside and inside the house.
- Another friend, who I’ve gotten to know over the past few years, came over to mow my lawn. It wasn’t the first time.
- I got an email this week that a radio program in Australia wants to interview me about my I am Second film.
- On Wednesday, I learned that my tumor marker was down to 45; the range for a person without cancer is 0-35.
- For the last three weeks, I’ve actually gained weight. For the 10 or so weeks prior, I was losing 1-5 pounds every week.
- Had lunch with a buddy who has a very intriguing idea for a book. I’m looking forward to contributing what I can.
- Another friend and sushi-buddy was talking to his young son about me and his son was moved to write me a get well card and draw one of my favorite things in the world – sushi!
And the list goes on. By focusing on how He’s moving in my life, I am aware of His Presence. And in His Presence … well, that’s where I want to be.
- At 10am on Thursday, I’ll be having an ultrasound on my legs. They’re a little swollen and we just want to make sure there are no blood clots. At least the gel they use for the ultrasound is very warm.
- Next week, I’ll go in for a CT scan. It will give us an idea of whether this current round of chemotherapy is effective and if the tumor is shrinking.
- My blood counts have been low so we’ve tweaked my chemo schedule to where I’m taking the infusion every other week. What this really means is that I only have to pay the co-pay 3 times every 6 weeks instead of 4; every little bit helps.
In the Palm of His Hands,